By John Popielaski
Energized by spring, he leaves
his buddies in the veterans’ home
and taps his hornbeam walking stick,
a metronome, upon the shoulder
of an asphalt road
until he reaches woods he loves
to camp in undisclosed.
He flaps a creased tarp
like a tablecloth enlisted
for a seasonal occasion
or a gathering in memory
of someone lost
and sets his canvas pup tent
like a centerpiece on that.
It takes a while for a firm
believer who has killed
in someone else’s name to struggle
with the deeds, to fear and turn
like someone shifting in a bunk
to dodge the undodgeable
evil that defies him in his dreams.
It was easier to think
that if his military had to
dust a jungle with defoliant
to see its stealthy enemy, it had to,
but he saw too much and thought
when he came home
that when ferocity was just
ferocity that served
no purpose that was good
a person had to go
where he could feel a good
approximation of the liberating
joy of being whole, in tune,
at one, whatever
is the opposite of being
steeltoed by a conscience
that remembers things
with clarity and screams them
like a sergeant in the middle
of a starlit, toad-lulled night.



